I thought that that was the last time I need to go through that. I didn't expect myself, or to see myself  going through the same thing all over again.

I can't imagine myself falling out from you, because all I'm doing now is falling even deeper and deeper for you.

You know this feeling doesn't change.

I just wanted to say that, you know, I was kind of disappointed that you didn't try to keep me. I know it was me who make you to have the choice, but it's just so sad that you didn't try to keep me.

Didn't you say before? Even if after we break, we will still be friends. I was afraid that we can't be friends anymore, is another reason why I was so hesitant to get with you back then.

Remember back then? My worries? You assured me everything was going to be fine, and you gave me a hug. That warmth, that assuredness, I can still remember all of them inside my heart.

All I ever wanted was to keep you with me, I never thought this will never last.

My love for you, and your like for me is different.

I sometimes questioned myself, do you ever love me?

You do know what's love right?

My heart aches now when I see you. Just now in class, when I go through the handphone, I suddenly saw that particular note you set in my calender. "I love you"

That was back then in July, do you still remember what did you do?

You gave me hope, get together with me, and the one who ended it. How ironic is that?

No. I don't blame anyone. Even if it's to blame, it's all just my fault for not trying my best to keep you.

I know I should be strong, but I don't know how long more I could do this anymore.

I remembered it was just one week ago. One week ago, I cried in the preview theatre, did you realize? Vondra was there beside me, and everything about you came back to me. The night when you text me, I thought I was ready for your break up, but no. I wasn't...

It hurt so much, that my heart sank immediately.

What is it in you that make me love you so much? I wonder why. I thought I was ready for that break up, but no, I didn't want to leave you.

I wanted to tell you not to leave me, I wanted to tell you to stay beside me. I don't care if you lose feelings for me or what. But then, I realize, it shouldn't be this case.

My love for you is big, it's strong, but no matter what, if you don't love me the way I do, I guess we will never work out. All I ever wish for is you talking to me. Is it just me, or is it that you really want to have nothing to do with me?

Is it really the case that you really want to have a clean break up, till the point that, You don't step into my life, and I don't step into my life? It's confusing me.

Even if I have many supporters of this relationship, you do know that that's not even enough to ease the pain I felt. I wonder how you felt after our break up.. Sad? Relieve?

Do you ever regret being with me?

Sometimes I wish I could just open up your brain, and take a good look inside.

I love you, this much. If you're ever reading this.. I really do love you.

Deep from my heart.