being awhile since i last typed in here. so many things to do and say but i just can't seem to get them to words.

today is yet another day that i miss him so much, just that this time round it's different, we're over.

it happened again. Just as i read back my post when i told myself not to trust so much, i fall deep again, and it still hurts badly even though nearly a month have passed. if at that time we didn't break up, we're 6th month this month...

i wonder if i am not good enough or not i am too good for anyone. why can't anyone seemed to appreciate who i am, or that can't they just let me stay by their side?

yes they do admit they like me, they do everything to get me. after they get me, and got sick of me, they dumped me and find another one just like anyone else ever do. i can never ever believe in whatever they are saying anymore. i doubt, i suspect, i distrust.

i just can't seem to get him out of my head even though a month had passed. every single place seemed to have his lingering figure and thought around, every single time seemed to get possessed by him.

why did you even started with me when you never intent to stay with me? why did you promise me things and never ever get it done. don't promise me because i don't want these to be broken. you said i will be fine, i am strong. i am not. the fact that i just want someone to be by my side whenever i needed them, is it that difficult or is that the most difficult thing to do on earth?

i don't understand.