I am in the train and typing this. I've thinking through so hard. Why did I tell you about this blog? Sometimes it's difficult for me to know what you are thinking.

I used to think that you will be my last. I even planned what we will be doing on Christmas, and you said you book me to bring me to Hatsune miku.
However, everything is ruined.
Christmas alone. Birthday alone. Your birthday.. I can't celebrate it for you anymore.

It will hurt me if I continue talking to you, means, I will never get to talk to you again?

Maybe let's make a promise.

The day when I text you, will be the day that I am over you, and we will go back to what were last time. The day I text you, will be the day that I really doesn't have feelings for you anymore.

So, thats that. I will never forget the times with you. The times from today will be tough, will be lonely, will be painful. But I will pass through all these.

But it also makes me wonder, why am I working so hard to have someone and then that person doesn't return my feelings?

It's three. All three dumped me is either they like another person or they doesn't like me.

Excuses. Nicholas said because I said I dont like him anymore then he went to like another girl. But it's not an excuse! Its not an excuse that you can just like another girl just like that.

That's is not fair at all..

I blame on my fate.

I blame on my life.

I MISS YOU.