I tried to watch movies and jdrama(s) to get my mind off from you.

Yesterday I went to watch a musical, and somehow during the musical, I thought of you. I imagined you being my side, and the first time we held hand together, the times we watch THOR.. and the times we were inside the library.

Some are bad memories, but I remembering the good one. I suddenly remembered about the drama I just watched today, and it seems that it will be awhile longer before I'm over you.

The rain outside my window is pouring now. It seems that the rain won't stop any sooner.

I miss you.

I don't know what I want, I hate that people are dumping me. I hate that people are always saying they'll be there for me but yet the next moment they're gone.

I chose to trust you, but the next moment, you disappear from me.

Why? When I always did my best to put my trust on that person, that person always left me. I don't understand. Is it my fate? Or that I just shouldn't be having a boyfriend?

I'm so scared right now that I don't know what I should do.