this isn't the right time for anything. so here I am trying my best to forget all about prince, and yes, his memories came flowing back into my head.

i remembered the first time we went to astons to eat, and then how much i wanted to share to him about my time in haze of singapore when he was away. how much i wanted him to be there for me when i had breathing difficulty when i was in singapore.

how much i had looked forward on him returning and give me a hug.

how much warmth his hugs and held was..
and all these crushed the moment when i put down the phone call the other time when i was on the way to school.

and at the very same branch of that same astons, i met the ex before prince.

he was the best i could ever ask for, just a little flaws that i couldn't bear.

but at that same branch, i saw him today and i started wondering if he had been a better person, i wouldn't have met prince, and without prince, my life isn't ruined right now... with my head all overwhelmed with him.

i really wonder if god is really playing a trick on me. or is that am i really that bad of a girlfriend that no one really wants.

or is that i am just too perfect for any other guy out there as what i heard from prince.

or is that... i just can't find anyone to be there for me?

strong? how am i even strong. all i ever asked for is someone to share my joy, laughter, sorrow and pain together with me, that's what i ever asked for, and that every single guy is leaving me?

我真的不知道我那里出错了。还是这是我前世的报应？
而我也只能默默的等待，用我这已破碎的心，等待一个不可能回实现的奇迹

能老天听我诉苦，而派一个愿意和我同甘共苦的人，只希望他能带在我身边，直到永远

而这“永远” 两个字的含义，也只能他来解说