he was right. I was escaping from every single thing that wants to enter my life. I pushed people that truly cared for me, i pushed them away because i was afraid that if I let them in, the one ended up getting hurt was me.

I didn't mind them being hurt. I was such an asshole. I hurt these people that truly cared for me, and the one that didn't get hurt was me.

I pushed them away before getting a chance to get hurt. I escaped, and I run away.

I don't trust people, even no matter how much trust they put into me.

They wanted me to trust them, but in the end I shoved them away, just like how I was shoved away by prince months ago.

I was doing the same thing as him. I am no difference from him. I am a bastard, just like him.

And all I ever wanted was just someone to be by my side. But now I know I am not ready.

but it really hurts... i don't even......

//fml